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Saturday, April 27, 2019
Day 116/365
Life must go on. The next morning, the first full day without, all the small things and realizations—these are the things that get you. It’s not making the decision, or handling the bill, or even the moment they stop breathing. It’s the empty collar in your hand as you leave and the empty bed at home. It's the bark free pizza delivery, and having to eat the bowl of popcorn without help. It's leaving the Dogs with Cancer support group on facebook because it cannot help you anymore.
And it's having to go on with your life without them, because if you don't, life will go on without you.
Day 115/365
It did not go the way it was supposed to. This morning started pretty much like any other—breakfast, chores, school—but ended in heartbreak so deep the anguish was echoed even by the open weeping of the sky. Our girl is gone. No longing will bring her back, no regret will change that truth. She was cherished and she will be missed.
